Brownie Bottom Cheesecake

 1 pkg. (19 to 21 oz.) brownie mix

4 pkg.  (8 oz. each) Cream Cheese, softened

1 cup sugar

1 tsp.  vanilla

1/2 cup Sour Cream

3   eggs

2 squares BAKER'S Semi-Sweet Chocolate 

PREPARE brownie batter as directed on package (usually takes 1/4 water, 2/3 cup vegetable oil, and 2 eggs); pour 2 cups (usually makes about 2 1/2) of brownie into 9" spring foam pan sprayed with cooking spray (on sides and bottom). Bake as directed for 9x9in pan (usually on 350F for about 40 min) or until top is shiny and center is almost set.

MEANWHILE, beat cream cheese, sugar and vanilla in large bowl with mixer until well blended. Add sour cream; mix well. Add eggs, 1 at a time, mixing on low speed after each just until blended. Gently pour over brownie layer in pan. (Filling will come almost to top of pan.) 

BAKE 40 min. or until center is almost set. Run knife around rim of pan to loosen sides; cool. Refrigerate 4 hours. 

MELT chocolate squares as directed on package; drizzle over cheesecake. Refrigerate 15 min. or until chocolate is firm. 

prep time           10 min

total time            6 hr

makes               16 servings

Left Behind

Where was I when it happened?
How could it even get this bad?
I tried yet failed you so.
I encouraged but led your demise.
I knew not but empty wonders
I knew only the hand that slayed.
It left me running, running into emptiness

I'm running from the future (I tried to hide my past)
I'm fighting for this dagger (there's only one way out)
I"m drowning in the ocean (who here to save the day?)
I'm calling for a savior (will you recognize and save?)

My heart was left in pieces
When you left me here one day
I felt a train colliding
I fell here today.
My life is worth nothing
Unless your here to stay.

I'm running from the future (I tried to hide my past)
I'm fighting for this dagger (there's only one way out)
I"m drowning in the ocean (who here to save the day?)
I'm calling for a savior (will you recognize and save?)

After I'm done fighting.
The always ends the same.
I leave you left dying
And fly away change.

Nothing really matters
Unless you just believe.
The world is ours to take.

I'm running from the future (I tried to hide my past)
I'm fighting for this dagger (there's only one way out)
I"m drowning in the ocean (who here to save the day?)
I'm calling for a savior (will you recognize and save?)

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (Part 1)

Last night. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows at 12:01. I must say.... it wasn't as good as some of the others, but again it didn't quiet get to the Epic part at the end yet. There were some action, but mostly kinda boring and just some camping, searching, and teleporting to a bunch of random places. I would rate this movie 3.5 stars. I had to go 80 down the highway in order to get there since I didn't get out of work until 11:20. Yeah I somehow got to I*********** from L**'* S***** in like 10 minutes. And did a little bit of running since I had to park like forever away. But I got there and still had time to spare. It was a great evening. Sadly, Before I went to work I made a pizza to eat on my break and yeah, I didn't get to eat because I had to call other people at work to take my shift on Sunday because stupid work scheduled me after I asked off. They can never be trusted.
I had a great morning however. I got to sleep in, well kind of. I got to sleep in until about 11. I had to take the boyfriend to school and stayed there and did some homework. Turns out I might have got this job at the IRS... I would have to go do a fingerprint thing and a typing thing. I don't know if its worth missing school over though. Who really is for sure, what do you think? Should I do it? So after I found that out I downloaded this game Typer Shark to try to up my typing skills. Not that I'm a horrible typer but I'm pretty sure you have to type like over 60 words a minute in order to get this job. So I need a smidge of practice.
Then me and the boyfriend came home, ended up taking a nap and making him late for work (whoops) which turned out he didn't even need to go to because they were so slow. Lucky him, too bad my work doesn't ever do that. But then I went to work around 7.
Today... I found out I did completely horrible  on my Biology test. Lucky for me though, I get 2 test dropped and that was definitely one of them. Usually I get A's on my test, but I got a C this time. :( Even the teacher was like this isn't like you. But I got an A on the lab test. So I felt a little better.
Boyfriend has been looking at the adds for Black Friday and it makes me sad I don't get to go shopping with them. I have to work for like 10 hours... talk about ew... Okay well I must go to get ready for Spanish (aka do Spanish Homework)

The Last Airbender

Today is a wet day. Last night I watched the Last Airbender... I have decided this movie is pretty much awesome. I loved the Television show. This movie had action, cool mystical powers, a little bit of g rated romance, and a cute guy. And of course since M. Night Shyalaman directed it a twist ending. Overall fantastic movie.
I tried making some more ornaments last night, but that didn't work out to well. I had to study for my biology test, when i say study I really mean ready all the notes over and over again. And look at the pictures and try to tell what all the parts are. And since some of the pictures were of male and female reproductive system... it was interesting. But I felt I did a rather great job. Hopefully another A. Then I will feel fantastic about myself, the lab test was a different story, freaking couldn't remember the name of the ejaculatory duct... i got the Duct part. And then there were some others. I have learned.. NEVER second guess yourself. YOU ARE 99.8% RIGHT THE FIRST TIME.
Why is it that I never want to get up in the morning? If I could just sleep in and stay out late every night I would be the most happiest Britney anyone has ever seen. But sadly the world does not work that way. I do however get to sleep in tomorrow... I think. Work is always dreadful... at least this work is. I wish I didn't have to go and as soon as I get there I want to leave. Its sad.. but its my job. For now.
And the sad part about school is that I never want to go to Spanish class. its like as soon as Biology is over I wanna go back home and go back to bed. But NOOO. I got to wait another 30 minutes, unless its a Friday then 2 hours and 30 minutes before I can go to Spanish. So as you can see, Spanish class is very hard. But I'm doing so well it should be a crime. Just got back our test we took on Friday and its an A. I know, go figure. But what can I saw, High School Spanish really paid off. 
Is it a sad thing that when I am home I don't really like to go anywhere else, I like being at my house doing nothing. That might make me a loser. But I am truly happy when I am at my house. Like last night once the boy toy got off work he asked if we could go back to his house in like 30 minutes. My reply. UGGGHHHHH. All I wanted to do was stay home study and work on some ornaments. But we had an awesome dinner. Well kinda. I had made instant mashed potatoes, bought some pumpkin pie and whipped cream and some mix to make cappuccinos. He provided the country fried steak and the gravy from his work. It was a great night. I'm sad its getting cold, I don't like the cold. I always feel like my fingers about to fall off or my toes are going to be frozen together. Plus I don't even have a heavy coat. I hear it is suppose to snow for the first time tonight. I personally don't like the snow, cause then you actually have to drive good.
On a happier note. I helped my sister with her math homework today and it felt awesome. I am such a dork, but i really don't care. Untill Mister Turley decided he was just going to tell her the answer to the problem we were working on that little bum. But she did the rest all by herself. And we took Mister Turley to work and we got Taco Bell and I was sad because I forgot to ask them to make the Soft Taco Supremes.... But i ate them anyway. CAN'T WAIT TO GET PAID, I feel broke. Well... I must get ready for work now.
"Don't regret anything that made you smile."

It's Complicated

So today I decided I'm going to sleep in. Yes, I still have about 3 more hours of interning I probably should have done, but I still have time. I was up late last night, finishing up some ornaments and they look beautiful. I dropped one once and all the pieces went flying all over my room. I wasn't very happy. Haha. But today. Slept in. AMAZING. Took a wonderful hot shower. Just what I needed. Then had to hurry to school. I don't think I would even know the meaning of being on time for anything. I'd probably be late to my own funeral.
I just want to ask a simple question. Lady's maybe you can help me out. What is the purpose to tights? Not the new stylish tights, regular 90s/80s tights. They really seem to serve no purpose. They are thin and worthless. And keep out no weather. Who knows.
School was okay. It's almost over thank the heavens. Only about 3 more weeks. Then holdiay break. However that also means, hurry up and get all your papers finished for the finals to turn in.. CRAPpppPppPp when am I gonna have the time to do that? Why can't there be 2 of me? Then maybe I wouldn't be such a slacker. Not that I'm a bad student... its just so hard to focus on things when you could be enjoying your day off. Now tell me this, why does it always seem that days off, heck WEEKENDS off go by so much faster than if your spending 6 or 8 hours at work? It doesn't make sense...
The boyfriend is in a funk... He seems to be that way a lot. He's very bipolor almost it feels. One minute he can be the happiest cutest boy you've ever met. The second he's got this huge i'm depressed look on. And once he get's into that state it takes ages to turn him around it feels. Like today. He seemed okay when I left him to go to my class while he went to his. 2 1/2 hours late I get out of class and there he is with this look of depression. This were I say UGGGGhhhhhhhhhhh.
So you don't know what you wanna do with your life? Well here's the catch, almost a third of college graduates (mostly those who attend community colleges) don't know what they want to do. It's not you... its everyone. So life hasn't turned out quiet how you imagined? Get over it? I don't know what to tell you. We don't live in a movie. Our life isn't a love song.
I will admit I'm one of those people who is always scared that my future is gonna come crashing down on me one day and I'm gonna sit back and think well F*** what am I gonna do now? But thats after... you haven't even tried anything yet... How do you know if you wanna be a chef or a computer programmer if you haven't even tried to be one yet? It doesn't make sense. Oh you wanna live your life being a bum and only working enough to pay the bills. That'll get you far in life. I'm pretty sure your grandpa didn't just sit on his ass all day in front of a computer to make that million dollars. Just saying. We all are suppose to work. We do it to make money. But for most people, we do it because it makes us happy. We like doing what we do. I love teaching students because every day is a new day. They don't care if your ugly, or if you the most stunning model in the world. They are there to learn and communicate with their peers. If you can do that for them, they'll love you forever.

Okay okay... that's enough blabbing for the day... I'm going to leave you with a song from a movie, that's also from a televison show from the 70s.
"Hello world there's a song that we're singing, Come on Get Happy!!!" :)

Unaware

So the parents talk of divorce (well ones the parent, the others the step-parent). This leaves my little sis in distraught. Its always hard being told these things. Although I'm almost certain it will never happen, who knows. One day my psychotic mother just might crack and be serious... That'll be the day.
Today was not a good one. Work is such a mundane place to be. Same thing over and over again. "Hi. How are you? Did you find everything okay? Is this going on your ***** card today? Do you have a ***** card with us? You know if you apply for one today you could save an extra 15% off your purchase today! Well maybe next time... You saved (insert amount here) dollars. On the back of your receipt is a survey to tell us how we're doing. Have a great day!" Anyone who has to say that a million times over again each day would probably wanna quit too. When will they learn that I really don't give ****. And then they ask me to stay later... if you wanted me here till 11:30 at night.. then by golly maybe you should schedule me till then. I am outa here at 10.
So the boyfriend is an idiot... I love him and all but really? We talked for an HOUR last night about why I didn't want him to do this activity. What does he do? He does it anyway. Like i don't even matter... what i had to say didn't even register as being an option. Sometimes people can seriously be sooo stupid. I mean really kid? I'm not spitting these truths for the heck of it! So I did something he probably didn't see coming... actually he did. Cause i told him i would if he did it. Men.. they never listen. I broke up with him. I made him cry... he deserved it. And I felt good about it. Lord knows how many times that boy has made me cry and has he ever shed a tear? No... so it felts really good. As evil and sadistic as that sounds I don't care... I was happy to see those tears. I was in an unhealthy fit of rage. Not because I broke up with him.. but because the little twerp didn't even seem to care. I'm sorry, but usually when a girl you "love" breaks up with you, you would wanna be trying your flippin hardest to get said girl back. You'd be calling her, saying lets talk. No... he texts me. TEXTS ME. When I finally call him saying we need to talk he talks... then says hey talk to E***... What the heck. NO I don't wanna freaking talk to E*** he's the reason your freaking doing this stupid stuff. So as you can see... I was angry. What does he do after school (should I say, during school) he goes home and plays video games... So as you can see... me being angry. Completely understandable. The kicking... not so much. But when people get mad they usually try to fix it with punching. And let me tell you I was livid. But after all that I decided that I still do love him.. And even though he is one stupid A** muther F***** and can't be without him. Let me tell you. He learned something that day. Whether it be to not do what I say he shouldn't, or that you should never unleash the wrath of Britney again. I'm not a mean demanding girlfriend, if i had to rate my girlfriend skills 1-10, I'd give me a 9. I'm sure every girl says that. See I'm completely up for him making his own choices as long as they wouldn't have negative affects on him, because I care about him. So when he does decided to make stupid choices I get angry when he doesn't listen to the reasons. See? Completely understanding. But he's so hard headed. He'll never get it.
Anyway... That's all for today. Now I'm home making ornaments for our Christmas tree (which look friggin sweet). And crafts always make me happy... and maybe a french vanilla cappuccino.